Like. In his pre-Servantness it was mud=>person=>gil and then he had this whole STANDING NEXT TO GIL thing. So his motivation was very . . . IT HAD A CLEAR TRAJECTORY. He was always on track and there was a lot of motivation to BE A PERSON AS FULLY AS POSSIBLE!!! so he could be a man next to Gil blah blah.
Ddddeecccooo has none of those motivations. Zero. He has literally no motivation to be a better person :'D; and even with his memories of his backstory like. . . Gil is here and there isn't the pressure from whatever to repeat the same trajectory as before so he is just like . . . do I want to do this?
BUT in Deco there was . . . even Enkidu felt a bit of shame after dealing with other people in Deco. It wasn't like oh no I am a bad person but . . . ah, people are reacting weirdly. So he had that motivation, especially when he wasn't so good with the talking but now he's just . . . in that 'why am I doing this' place again.
IF HE WERE ANOTHER PERSON ENKIDU MIGHT BE HAVING AN EXISTENTIAL CRISIS ahaha but he isn't. So he's just like. I see I can do this to be a better person. I am a better person now. I am better at this and this. But it . . . kind of wears on him in a weird way. He doesn't have a strong passion for it so he mostly is like :/ about it.
Enkidu has developed a better sense of social . . . stuff around him but he isn't sure he likes it. Part of it is def too he feels like his relationships with Lark and Gil are uneven and he wants to improve '^' but isn't sure that is part of being a Person.
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Like. In his pre-Servantness it was mud=>person=>gil and then he had this whole STANDING NEXT TO GIL thing. So his motivation was very . . . IT HAD A CLEAR TRAJECTORY. He was always on track and there was a lot of motivation to BE A PERSON AS FULLY AS POSSIBLE!!! so he could be a man next to Gil blah blah.
Ddddeecccooo has none of those motivations. Zero. He has literally no motivation to be a better person :'D; and even with his memories of his backstory like. . . Gil is here and there isn't the pressure from whatever to repeat the same trajectory as before so he is just like . . . do I want to do this?
BUT in Deco there was . . . even Enkidu felt a bit of shame after dealing with other people in Deco. It wasn't like oh no I am a bad person but . . . ah, people are reacting weirdly. So he had that motivation, especially when he wasn't so good with the talking but now he's just . . . in that 'why am I doing this' place again.
IF HE WERE ANOTHER PERSON ENKIDU MIGHT BE HAVING AN EXISTENTIAL CRISIS ahaha but he isn't. So he's just like. I see I can do this to be a better person. I am a better person now. I am better at this and this. But it . . . kind of wears on him in a weird way. He doesn't have a strong passion for it so he mostly is like :/ about it.
Enkidu has developed a better sense of social . . . stuff around him but he isn't sure he likes it. Part of it is def too he feels like his relationships with Lark and Gil are uneven and he wants to improve '^' but isn't sure that is part of being a Person.
But ok if Enkidu forgot Lark how would that go.