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THE SHORT OF THE LONG is Lark is just after Gil in terms of importance. Gil > Lark > Mister > Cardinal. Enkidu relies on Lark in some emotional ways but also in some just basic being a person ways. Enkidu has been getting better at the person thing with memories but he doesn't really . . . like right now his sense of time is a little better but he will not necessarily adhere to it because losing time and hanging out with Lark is appropriate and okay and :'D; it's just these weird little convolutions he does that are based on positive experiences with Lark basically.
WHENEVER I RUN A HEART THIS WILL BE A LOT MORE OBVIOUS!11
ABSINTHE IS EASILY ONE OF LARK'S FAVORITE PEOPLE. also in theory the one who in that group he would think he most needs to distance himself from except that's just not happening
he doesn't have the willpower to give up something he likes to begin with and Absinthe has told him in no uncertain terms that he wants him around on several occasions so why would he ever refuse him that. DISTANCE? WHAT DISTANCE. part of him is still terrified and wants to stop caring before they inevitably have to go separate ways but it's not... getting anywhere. especially not since vague attempts to shove you off onto Gil proved fruitless SORRY CRIPPLING FEAR DERE WON
he does kind of feel like he doesn't know Absinthe as well as he'd like to, which he knows is not because Absinthe is hiding anything from him or anything like that but just because Absinthe lives solely in the present, while Lark is hideously wrapped up in the past and the future and tends to think of the present in terms of its relation to the past and future, and so he always kind of wants to know about things that have happened to Absinthe and what Absinthe thinks and plans for the eventual except he knows he won't really get... a satisfactory answer because Absinthe doesn't think about those things
eventually he may just start asking Sunshine/Cardinal to keep up with things stalking but for now he's just kind of ehh that's how it is, nothing to be done
but mostly just. I AM WANTED AND I LOVE THIS PERSON AND ,_, spews affection everywhere
Absinthe is also like the only person who is good for him at all please continue to call his shit forever
how is the being a person coming btw... LIKE DOES HE FEEL BETTER ABOUT IT/IS HE IMPROVING/DOES HE THINK HE'S IMPROVING etc.
Like. In his pre-Servantness it was mud=>person=>gil and then he had this whole STANDING NEXT TO GIL thing. So his motivation was very . . . IT HAD A CLEAR TRAJECTORY. He was always on track and there was a lot of motivation to BE A PERSON AS FULLY AS POSSIBLE!!! so he could be a man next to Gil blah blah.
Ddddeecccooo has none of those motivations. Zero. He has literally no motivation to be a better person :'D; and even with his memories of his backstory like. . . Gil is here and there isn't the pressure from whatever to repeat the same trajectory as before so he is just like . . . do I want to do this?
BUT in Deco there was . . . even Enkidu felt a bit of shame after dealing with other people in Deco. It wasn't like oh no I am a bad person but . . . ah, people are reacting weirdly. So he had that motivation, especially when he wasn't so good with the talking but now he's just . . . in that 'why am I doing this' place again.
IF HE WERE ANOTHER PERSON ENKIDU MIGHT BE HAVING AN EXISTENTIAL CRISIS ahaha but he isn't. So he's just like. I see I can do this to be a better person. I am a better person now. I am better at this and this. But it . . . kind of wears on him in a weird way. He doesn't have a strong passion for it so he mostly is like :/ about it.
Enkidu has developed a better sense of social . . . stuff around him but he isn't sure he likes it. Part of it is def too he feels like his relationships with Lark and Gil are uneven and he wants to improve '^' but isn't sure that is part of being a Person.
TERRIBLE :'D Lark's coping mechanisms are all recently learned and ineffective and also like half of them are Absinthe to begin with. he has NO emotional resilience and ultimately responds to this in the most unhelpful way possible, which is >shut down completely.
because it's Absinthe he might make... tiny... cursory movements towards like at least. confirming? that he really doesn't remember anything about him? which is technically an improvement on if it were just about anyone else but in the end even if Absinthe reached out to start over he'd just. NOPE. NOPE CAN'T FUCKING DEAL WITH THIS and just possibly literally run away
and continue to not cope for a whileee
it would be really interesting for their relationship too tho because like... Lark tends to approach people from a stance of looking down on them and so far March is the only exception to this in deco, as an equal, but like that level of emotional vulnerability, especially once Absinthe starts remembering him again, could probably totally flip that aspect of their dynamic
I THINK IT WOULD GO DOWN IN A "Oh, you forgot. Okay." and then just hang around really open and himself about it. But it would be really heartbreaking in a not entirely up front way. It would mean his entire emotional precipice would be on Gil. He may just slide back into only Gil - in the sense of shutting everyone else out. He would still be 'open' with the but not allow any relationship growth on his side :');;;
LOSE LARK, CONTINUE TO BE FRIENDLY AND FUNCTIONING NEVER MAKE ANYMORE FRIENDS OUTSIDE OF GIL EVER!!11
Does Lark realize how much/close he means/is to Enkidu :?
VVVAGUELY. technically yes!? like he realizes his place in the rankings... but also since Absinthe has a clear Most Important Person and that person is here Lark kind of expects that he doesn't actually need anyone else and would be okay with throwing anyone else away. NOT THAT HE'D DO IT HAPPILY, BUT HE'D STILL... BE WILLING TO. to him the distinction between "want" and "need" is really huge and meaningful and he doesn't think Absinthe has any real "need" of him, which is a large part of the. terror thing! WANTING ISN'T ENOUGH
so in part he is underestimating his importance but really it is more that he is overestimating Gil's importance
WHAT TEAM(s) WOULD YOU WANT RIN ON IN DECO CELESTE
I only want to be on psychopath teams in amnesia games anymore hahaha. Or at least teams with one crazy person/psychopath. So in Deco that means Coprse or Celeste. So yes probably Celeste. That is where I put her for the thread with Vic anyway so.
WHAT ARE LARK'S IMPRESSIONS OF THE VARIOUS TEAMS and how do these differ from yours oocly :?
um his thoughts/impressions are obviously very colored by personal experience and has different information from what I have and prioritizes his information differently, so like while I try to formulate my impressions into GENERALIZATIONS I CAN TRY TO MAKE FIT THE WHOLE TEAM his impressions are more along the lines of "how do they behave in games"
I'm... I'm too tired to list my impressions of the teams
o wait also Copper Rose offered them an alliance so I guess "Copper Rose is kind of (unsure), not in a bad way just in a. why. what u doin. way."
I never think about uniforms . . . or clothing tbh. Unless my characters have a particular style preference it doesn't enter my sphere of thinking hahaha and even if they do I don't think of it tooo often beyond establishing a certain personality link.
so i will just give a quick clothing thing for my deco boys.
Enkidu pretty much sticks with androgynous clothing! He generally won't wear anything that isn't gender neutral in some respect. Though he would wear things that fall into either more 'masculine' or 'feminine' choices but he definitely prefers to be androgynous in dress. He IS comfortable crossdressing but I think it would be a little weird for him to be mistaken for a girl even MORE than he already is.
KIREI HAS GREAT FASHION DECISIONS and actually only wears the most expensive top line awesome fashion clothes wh...en... he dresses like a normal person. Basically when not in priestgear he dresses like a sociopath (because he is one hahaha).
BUT OK IF ENKIDU ASKED LARK OUT WHAT WOULD LARK'S EXACT REACTION BE.
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THE SHORT OF THE LONG is Lark is just after Gil in terms of importance. Gil > Lark > Mister > Cardinal. Enkidu relies on Lark in some emotional ways but also in some just basic being a person ways. Enkidu has been getting better at the person thing with memories but he doesn't really . . . like right now his sense of time is a little better but he will not necessarily adhere to it because losing time and hanging out with Lark is appropriate and okay and :'D; it's just these weird little convolutions he does that are based on positive experiences with Lark basically.
WHENEVER I RUN A HEART THIS WILL BE A LOT MORE OBVIOUS!11
reverse. . .
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ABSINTHE IS EASILY ONE OF LARK'S FAVORITE PEOPLE. also in theory the one who in that group he would think he most needs to distance himself from except that's just not happening
he doesn't have the willpower to give up something he likes to begin with and Absinthe has told him in no uncertain terms that he wants him around on several occasions so why would he ever refuse him that. DISTANCE? WHAT DISTANCE. part of him is still terrified and wants to stop caring before they inevitably have to go separate ways but it's not... getting anywhere. especially not since vague attempts to shove you off onto Gil proved fruitless SORRY CRIPPLING FEAR DERE WON
he does kind of feel like he doesn't know Absinthe as well as he'd like to, which he knows is not because Absinthe is hiding anything from him or anything like that but just because Absinthe lives solely in the present, while Lark is hideously wrapped up in the past and the future and tends to think of the present in terms of its relation to the past and future, and so he always kind of wants to know about things that have happened to Absinthe and what Absinthe thinks and plans for the eventual except he knows he won't really get... a satisfactory answer because Absinthe doesn't think about those things
eventually he may just start asking Sunshine/Cardinal to keep up with things
stalkingbut for now he's just kind of ehh that's how it is, nothing to be donebut mostly just. I AM WANTED AND I LOVE THIS PERSON AND ,_, spews affection everywhere
Absinthe is also like the only person who is good for him at all please continue to call his shit forever
how is the being a person coming btw... LIKE DOES HE FEEL BETTER ABOUT IT/IS HE IMPROVING/DOES HE THINK HE'S IMPROVING etc.
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Like. In his pre-Servantness it was mud=>person=>gil and then he had this whole STANDING NEXT TO GIL thing. So his motivation was very . . . IT HAD A CLEAR TRAJECTORY. He was always on track and there was a lot of motivation to BE A PERSON AS FULLY AS POSSIBLE!!! so he could be a man next to Gil blah blah.
Ddddeecccooo has none of those motivations. Zero. He has literally no motivation to be a better person :'D; and even with his memories of his backstory like. . . Gil is here and there isn't the pressure from whatever to repeat the same trajectory as before so he is just like . . . do I want to do this?
BUT in Deco there was . . . even Enkidu felt a bit of shame after dealing with other people in Deco. It wasn't like oh no I am a bad person but . . . ah, people are reacting weirdly. So he had that motivation, especially when he wasn't so good with the talking but now he's just . . . in that 'why am I doing this' place again.
IF HE WERE ANOTHER PERSON ENKIDU MIGHT BE HAVING AN EXISTENTIAL CRISIS ahaha but he isn't. So he's just like. I see I can do this to be a better person. I am a better person now. I am better at this and this. But it . . . kind of wears on him in a weird way. He doesn't have a strong passion for it so he mostly is like :/ about it.
Enkidu has developed a better sense of social . . . stuff around him but he isn't sure he likes it. Part of it is def too he feels like his relationships with Lark and Gil are uneven and he wants to improve '^' but isn't sure that is part of being a Person.
But ok if Enkidu forgot Lark how would that go.
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because it's Absinthe he might make... tiny... cursory movements towards like at least. confirming? that he really doesn't remember anything about him? which is technically an improvement on if it were just about anyone else but in the end even if Absinthe reached out to start over he'd just. NOPE. NOPE CAN'T FUCKING DEAL WITH THIS and just possibly literally run away
and continue to not cope for a whileee
it would be really interesting for their relationship too tho because like... Lark tends to approach people from a stance of looking down on them and so far March is the only exception to this in deco, as an equal, but like that level of emotional vulnerability, especially once Absinthe starts remembering him again, could probably totally flip that aspect of their dynamic
REVERSE??
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I THINK IT WOULD GO DOWN IN A "Oh, you forgot. Okay." and then just hang around really open and himself about it. But it would be really heartbreaking in a not entirely up front way. It would mean his entire emotional precipice would be on Gil. He may just slide back into only Gil - in the sense of shutting everyone else out. He would still be 'open' with the but not allow any relationship growth on his side :');;;
LOSE LARK, CONTINUE TO BE FRIENDLY AND FUNCTIONING NEVER MAKE ANYMORE FRIENDS OUTSIDE OF GIL EVER!!11
Does Lark realize how much/close he means/is to Enkidu :?
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so in part he is underestimating his importance but really it is more that he is overestimating Gil's importance
WHAT TEAM(s) WOULD YOU WANT RIN ON IN DECO
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I only want to be on psychopath teams in amnesia games anymore hahaha. Or at least teams with one crazy person/psychopath. So in Deco that means Coprse or Celeste. So yes probably Celeste.
That is where I put her for the thread with Vic anyway so.WHAT ARE LARK'S IMPRESSIONS OF THE VARIOUS TEAMS and how do these differ from yours oocly :?
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I'M CHEATING BUT THAT'S ABOUT IT
um his thoughts/impressions are obviously very colored by personal experience and has different information from what I have and prioritizes his information differently, so like while I try to formulate my impressions into GENERALIZATIONS I CAN TRY TO MAKE FIT THE WHOLE TEAM his impressions are more along the lines of "how do they behave in games"
I'm... I'm too tired to list my impressions of the teams
o wait also Copper Rose offered them an alliance so I guess "Copper Rose is kind of (unsure), not in a bad way just in a. why. what u doin. way."
WHAT ARE YOUR/YOUR CHARACTERS UNIFORM FAVORITES
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I never think about uniforms . . . or clothing tbh. Unless my characters have a particular style preference it doesn't enter my sphere of thinking hahaha and even if they do I don't think of it tooo often beyond establishing a certain personality link.
so i will just give a quick clothing thing for my deco boys.
Enkidu pretty much sticks with androgynous clothing! He generally won't wear anything that isn't gender neutral in some respect. Though he would wear things that fall into either more 'masculine' or 'feminine' choices but he definitely prefers to be androgynous in dress. He IS comfortable crossdressing but I think it would be a little weird for him to be mistaken for a girl even MORE than he already is.
KIREI HAS GREAT FASHION DECISIONS and actually only wears the most expensive top line awesome fashion clothes wh...en... he dresses like a normal person. Basically when not in priestgear he dresses like a sociopath (because he is one hahaha).
BUT OK IF ENKIDU ASKED LARK OUT WHAT WOULD LARK'S EXACT REACTION BE.
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A LOT OF BLUSHING AND LITERALLY FLAILING AND PROBABLY ASKING HIM LIKE THREE TIMES TO CONFIRM WHAT HE MEANS and then probably "I wouldn't mind"
or well more like "I WOULDN'T MIND"
extremely dignified basically
WHERE WOULD YOU SORT CASTMATES FOR RIN IN AATHER